If I had health insurance, I would be laying in a hospital bed right now, hopefully (blissfully) hooked up to morphine and other delicious narcotics that would have taken the edge off the pain I was in last night and this morning.
Instead, I laid in bed, writhing around, rating my pain as an 11 on a scale of one to 10.
I couldn't lay in one position for too long for fear of getting stiff but moving hurt too much. I hit a mental wall, where the physical pain was beginning to affect my mind.
I started thinking things like, "What if it never stops?", "What if I can never get it under control?" Panic slowly started to seep into my cells.
Then I remembered - I'd watched a friend go into labor and manage her pain by using HypnoBabies. While I clearly was not giving birth, I wondered if I could manage my pain by those same techniques.
I turned on Pandora Casting Crowns radio, laid it on my pillow, and closed my eyes. I envisioned a "calming center" in my core, a rotating ball where, as I felt wave upon wave of pain, I would put it there and the pain would leave whatever part of my body it was plaguing.
At first, it was a struggle just to acknowledge my "calming center". I felt the pain still trying to take over but I consistently resisted the urge to panic until I methodically and calmly placed the pain in the ball.
Three hours later, I'd slept peacefully and woke up refreshed and nearly painfree.
Now, it is time for me to go lay down and try to sleep, purging my pain.